Thursday, August 21, 2008

Grandma Millie Glasses + Husband = Belly Laughs at 2am

I just luff him.

Wyoming Shenanigans

Since we spend so much time in Wyoming, we might as well enjoy what (little) it has to offer! Here's some highlights (and lowlights) from the last few weekends...

Standard-picture-of-the-sunset-from-your-car picture.

Alpine Slide-Jackson Hole...Nothing like hurling yourself down a rocky mountain on a rickety plastic sled...

Yeah, those once were bugs. It's ok to be totally grossed out.

Now you see him....

Now you don't...

*Shrug* What? You don't do this to gigantic bear statues?

Out of all those bajillion fish, B only caught just this one....

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

In the Midst of the Lotus

Things from my past seem to keep haunting me,tangling their fingers in my hair,
defiantly, roughly. The belittling words of my former burdens thunder so loudly in my ears. The weight of decisions I never made have settled on my bed making it difficult to sleep. My empty apartment is uncomfortable and I don't like the sound it makes. Irrational fears trailing at my feet... I'm having trouble understanding the functions of people around me. Their motives seem entirely lost, their conscience cast aside.

It's coming, I feel it. My patience, my obedience, my faith is being taught and tested. My chest feels tight. I feel like I'm counting seconds, ticking the days off on my fingers, frustrated I can't count faster. I'm too anxious. Too anxious for him, for December, for the thousands of Monday's to come, for things to hold, for arms that embrace, for the Woolf to find me, for residential reality, for his laughter, for the warm blanket that he is, for brilliance to emerge off the pages, for things that don't break, for the common ground we thrive upon.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Shift Happens....some food for thought

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

i wonder

i'm feeling better in these lucid blues.
my breaking bones don't seem to notice.
the savage, smart people are taking things
that don't belong to them.
i wonder.
the light seems unsteady, the quiet is
unnervingly falling between the couch cushions.
how can you expect me not to drop it?
you know no exclamation points are allowed.
i wonder.
those mouths have spoiled. those eyes
are much too shifty.
they owe us a loaded apology. hold nothing.
its over. we don't want to play anymore.
i wonder.

(what several days of unnecessary things does to my mind.)

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Wyoming Weekend

Last weekend I made a little trip up to Wyoming. The company Brandon works for was having a company picnic at White Pines Ski Resort. We had so much fun, the company had all kinds of activities to do and we took advantage of all of them. It was a much needed little break for me to recoup before next semester.

We went mountain biking, something Brandon has done and has total confidence in doing. I, on the other hand, have been on nothing more than a stationary bike in the last 5 years. Yeah, the phrase "It's like riding a bike, you never forget" means crap to me. I totally forgot. And let's just say that we learned that when I get frustrated my inner 5 year old really shines through.

We particularly enjoyed horseback riding. Our horses, BoBo and Heidi, seemed to be rather competitive, but we had a blast regardless. Our guide was a soft spoken, real true blue cowboy and it somehow added to the "feel" of the experience.
(Doesn't my honey look cute on a horse?)

This fire in Wyoming is so massive. At that point it had burned over 10 square miles, roughly 7000 acres. But its still blazing, and is much worse now than it was a week ago.

Me and B at the top of the mountain. I just love this guy.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Questions for those who read this....

So, I've been toying around with some ideas....based on some suggestions....Long story...anyway...

If I were to write a book, what would you want to read?

2- Children's book?
3- Teen Fiction? (Think the Twilight series, but not about vampires.)
4- Non Fiction? (Something similar to what my blog is like, but much more polished and better developed.)
5- Other? (Be creative here...make a suggestion.)

I'm asking lots of people, I realize people are super busy, but if you can offer feedback, I'd appreciate it.


Sunday, August 3, 2008

I am...with my love, loving him, anticipating days to come.
I think...I pray, I know, I am.
I know...I am far more capable than I want to say out loud.
I want...simplicity, beauty, health, knowledge, love.
I, knowledge, health, beauty, simplicity.
I wish...that distance wasn't plaguing all my relationships.
I hate...ignorance, unkindness, darkness, empty beds.
I husband, I miss my dad.
I fear...things I can't control, things that don't matter, things I already know I will do well.
I feel...adored.
I hear...the quiet, the wind, the crickets.
I smell...the smoke of Wyoming fires.
I search...for the next book, the next inspiriation, ways to avoid the heat.
I the strength of those around me.
I regret...not appreciating culture sooner.
I husband's face, his character, his being.
I care...about family, spirituality, broken lives.
I always...wonder if I am doing enough.
I am not...a natural athlete.
I the power of one.
I dance...rarely.
I sing...with heart.
I don't always...say what i mean, turn off the lights at night, read what I should.
I write...more than what is here, the way I think, the things I see.
I win...but who is keeping score?
I Scrabble, cards, and races.
I never...thought I could feel this much love, both given and received.
I listen...for the music when there shouldn't be any playing.
I can usually be found...with a book or pen in hand.
I'm scared of...irrational things.
I read...everything, all the time.
I am happy education that teaches me that i know nothing.

*Anyone else?*