Monday, March 31, 2008

Magical Thinking

So, there is the psychological, cognitive science thing (disorder? issue? I don't really know) called Magical Thinking. I know, I know, it doesn't really sound like an official scientific name, but that's what they call it. Anyway, its a thing where you think that your thoughts have more power over certain events and situations than they really do. I'm pretty sure I suffer/have this, here's why.

I don't sleep on planes or in cars if I can at all help it. My incredibly deep fear of flying forces me to reason with myself, when I am on a plane, in ways that I wouldn't normally. If I stay awake and constantly repeat to myself, "The plane will not crash. It will stay in the air," then it won't happen. Same as in cars. If I fall asleep, who is going to will them to their destinations safely? No one...thats who. I think that if I let myself become distracted by TV or cleaning the house when Brandon is on his motorcycle then something will happen to him.

Seriously, I am seeing myself type these things and I realize how ridiculous it sounds. I am aware of this....and slightly embarrassed by it. Surely I can't be the only person I know that has this issue...

Where did this little psycho part of me come from? I could give about a dozen other scenarios like this, but I will spare you my loony-ness and move on, cause no one likes a crazy person who thinks she can control things with her thoughts. That is just absurd.

9 comments:

TheBastians said...

You're not crazy at all! I just love you to pieces! Have you talked to a psychologist about this? I know that probably sounds totally stupid to you, but my brother-in-law was in almost the exact situation and they found out he has OCD and he's really been helped. So ... maybe? :) But either way, I think you're darling! And I miss you!

Brandon and Julie said...

I haven't actually, and honestly, I probably am a little bit OCD! I miss you too, Cristi!

Linds said...

I think you're wrong, cause I love a good crazy person who thinks she can control things with her thoughts! :)

On a serious note, your thoughts really do have a lot of power. I always have to try to tell myself, "You are not broken or fragile, you are strong and healthy, despite things that happen to you..." It hasn't really helped yet, but it's worth a shot, right? ha ha

Brandon and Julie said...

This is true...I am torn between this being the law of attraction or if I really am just a little nuts!

BritGal' Sarah said...

Good to know there's someone else out there who as psycho as me!

labraham said...

I am not crazy,I am not! You and I have some weird querks. I cannot sleep in planes or cars either. I just thought this was a normal thing and that other people are the crazy ones.

Linds said...

girl, it's been almost 2 weeks...I need a new blog to read from you :)

Haley said...

Update blog now! SDLY

Just Us said...

like they said....